Post by JRK Archiver on Feb 18, 2008 13:39:25 GMT -5
Chapter 11
Georgies POV
As I sit in the hospital bed staring around me at the yellow room I wonder how my life has come to this. How could something that was such a fairy tale turn in to such a nightmare? I remember when I lost my first child my heart broke into billions of pieces. I knew it would never really mend either. The doctors said they werent sure why she was still born and never had found the reason but they told me there was a 70 percent chance that the next child I had would also be still born or miscarried. I was so terrified that I almost decided never to have another child again for fear of the same heartbreak. I knew that if I lost another baby my heart would be broken forever. Dillon and I almost divorced after the baby died. We fought constantly and both of us were in so much pain that we were afraid to even speak to each other for fear of hurting ourselves or each other. But I did get pregnant again and we went through nine months of being terrified and happy at the same time. The day I went into labor I remember holding Dillons hand in the hospital bed both of us were shaking and I was in so much pain. Finally we both heard the baby cry and the doctor said I had just had a beautiful baby girl. We both cried as he handed me the baby. We were so relieved and happy, we finally felt complete again. Our life was everything I had imagined it would be and Carmen was the sweetest little girl in the world but now she was gone and so was Maxie. Everything was falling apart and I couldnt do anything about it. I quickly get out of bed and slip on my jeans and t-shirt. I have to get out of here tonight. I cant stay in here doing nothing while my sister and my daughter could be dieing. I run out the door and down the hallway and into the lobby. The elevator door opens and Dillon runs out and sees me. There is a look in his eyes and I know something more is going on.
Thats when I see her standing behind him, my mother. The anger and hatred I feel for her fills my heart and I feel it building inside.
" You bitch." I say loud enough for the whole room to start staring at me but I dont care.
I expect Dillon to try and stop me to tell me not to do this here and now but he doesnt he just stands there staring at me and I can tell he understands.
" Georgie." She says calmly.
" How dare you come down here. What are you even doing here?" I ask angrily.
" I came down to see you Georgie your hurting and i need to be here for you and Maxie." She says softly.
I start to laugh.
" Oh you pick this time to come home after all the times that me and Maxie needed you. Well that is just about the biggest joke I have ever heard. What about when I got my first period and I was so scared and didnt know what to do,or when Maxie overdosed on extasy and almost died? What about my wedding day when I would have loved to have my mother sitting their in the front row or Maxies wedding day? And what about when I got pregnant and my baby was still born?" I scream letting all the anger unleash on her.
I see her eyes fill up with tears but I feel no regret at all.
" Well you know what it doesnt matter anyway because I always had Maxie and she always had me. It was like we had to mother each other. We were both lonely little girls that needed our mother but you were never there. Thank God we had each other and Mac because if I wouldnt have had them I'm not sure where I would be right now.The only reason that you came down here was because you could do some Private investigating and Maybe find our daughter and turn out to be the hero but your not mom you never will be the hero to me." I say sobbing." Oh well maybe you can try to find Maxie now too because she was also kidnapped and guess what if we dont find them in two weeks they will both be killed. "
I look over at Dillon and see his head buried in his hands and I know that he is crying too. Everyone has turned away now that I'm done speaking and my mother is standing there speechless.
" Well I guess that I will go find Mac at the police station and I will speak to you when you have calmed down." She says almost robotically then walks away.
I stare at her as she leaves and I want to scream at her but instead I stop myself and walk over to Dillon. I gently pull his hands away and see his red eyes and the tears that have stained his cheeks. he takes my face in his hands and I rest my forehead against his.
" I love you." He whispers.
" I love you too." I say with tears falling down me cheeks.
He pulls me close to him and together we stand holding each other in silence in the lobby of the hospital.
Georgies POV
As I sit in the hospital bed staring around me at the yellow room I wonder how my life has come to this. How could something that was such a fairy tale turn in to such a nightmare? I remember when I lost my first child my heart broke into billions of pieces. I knew it would never really mend either. The doctors said they werent sure why she was still born and never had found the reason but they told me there was a 70 percent chance that the next child I had would also be still born or miscarried. I was so terrified that I almost decided never to have another child again for fear of the same heartbreak. I knew that if I lost another baby my heart would be broken forever. Dillon and I almost divorced after the baby died. We fought constantly and both of us were in so much pain that we were afraid to even speak to each other for fear of hurting ourselves or each other. But I did get pregnant again and we went through nine months of being terrified and happy at the same time. The day I went into labor I remember holding Dillons hand in the hospital bed both of us were shaking and I was in so much pain. Finally we both heard the baby cry and the doctor said I had just had a beautiful baby girl. We both cried as he handed me the baby. We were so relieved and happy, we finally felt complete again. Our life was everything I had imagined it would be and Carmen was the sweetest little girl in the world but now she was gone and so was Maxie. Everything was falling apart and I couldnt do anything about it. I quickly get out of bed and slip on my jeans and t-shirt. I have to get out of here tonight. I cant stay in here doing nothing while my sister and my daughter could be dieing. I run out the door and down the hallway and into the lobby. The elevator door opens and Dillon runs out and sees me. There is a look in his eyes and I know something more is going on.
Thats when I see her standing behind him, my mother. The anger and hatred I feel for her fills my heart and I feel it building inside.
" You bitch." I say loud enough for the whole room to start staring at me but I dont care.
I expect Dillon to try and stop me to tell me not to do this here and now but he doesnt he just stands there staring at me and I can tell he understands.
" Georgie." She says calmly.
" How dare you come down here. What are you even doing here?" I ask angrily.
" I came down to see you Georgie your hurting and i need to be here for you and Maxie." She says softly.
I start to laugh.
" Oh you pick this time to come home after all the times that me and Maxie needed you. Well that is just about the biggest joke I have ever heard. What about when I got my first period and I was so scared and didnt know what to do,or when Maxie overdosed on extasy and almost died? What about my wedding day when I would have loved to have my mother sitting their in the front row or Maxies wedding day? And what about when I got pregnant and my baby was still born?" I scream letting all the anger unleash on her.
I see her eyes fill up with tears but I feel no regret at all.
" Well you know what it doesnt matter anyway because I always had Maxie and she always had me. It was like we had to mother each other. We were both lonely little girls that needed our mother but you were never there. Thank God we had each other and Mac because if I wouldnt have had them I'm not sure where I would be right now.The only reason that you came down here was because you could do some Private investigating and Maybe find our daughter and turn out to be the hero but your not mom you never will be the hero to me." I say sobbing." Oh well maybe you can try to find Maxie now too because she was also kidnapped and guess what if we dont find them in two weeks they will both be killed. "
I look over at Dillon and see his head buried in his hands and I know that he is crying too. Everyone has turned away now that I'm done speaking and my mother is standing there speechless.
" Well I guess that I will go find Mac at the police station and I will speak to you when you have calmed down." She says almost robotically then walks away.
I stare at her as she leaves and I want to scream at her but instead I stop myself and walk over to Dillon. I gently pull his hands away and see his red eyes and the tears that have stained his cheeks. he takes my face in his hands and I rest my forehead against his.
" I love you." He whispers.
" I love you too." I say with tears falling down me cheeks.
He pulls me close to him and together we stand holding each other in silence in the lobby of the hospital.